I Clicked the Refresh Button In My Life.

So.  I'm starting over...again...I think.  Anyways.


I've been living in a dark world for quite some time now; and I decided it's about time that I turn the light on myself since it's not going to turn on itself.  I waited and waited and waited for that PERFECT moment for something.  Well the truth is, I didn't even know what that something was; I was pretty much waiting for nothing––I was wasting time basking in my MISERY.  Sounds terrible, I know.


And the thing is, the people closest to me probably don't understand how this could be true because I walk around with my head held high enough to make it seem as though I live in a perfect "world" where I have everything figured out.  Well...I don't.  I've been lying.  I've been lying about wanting to know what I want to do in life.  I've been lying about sitting in my room reading and studying for hours---I've really just been sitting around watching basketball, sleeping, eating and thinking about who knows what and crying about who knows what (I sure as hell have no idea).  I've been lying about being "together"; right now I'm just a big jumbled up piece of confused randomness.


This isn't some pity story.  I don't expect you to feel bad for me, to cry, to want to "talk to me about my feelings."  And I CERTAINLY don't want anyone that I know who reads this to start treating me differently as if I'm in some sort of depressed state (been there, done that).  I'm not.  I've just been confused about myself.  How I'm able to give my peers, friends, acquaintances, mentors, family members, etc. so much great advice in this condition.....I have no fucking clue.  But we all say it right? "I just wish I could take my own advice."


Well I finally decided that it's time that I do just that.  I took my own advice of sucking up life and going for what I FEEL is right.  I'm going to stop procrastinating on doing things that I know I am and/or can be good at––GREAT at.


So, what is this blog going to be about from now on? ...I don't know.  But I do know I want to write.  I have thoughts and opinions for days; and instead of trying to fit them all into a 140 character tweet, I figured it would be best to write articles about them––or blog posts––or journal entries--or whatever you wish to call them.


These "pieces" will be based on my experiences, my views on things, my insight.  So no, you won't find your source for new music, iCandy, videos, tumblrish things, and what not that you USED to find here.  For all of that you can go to my other site.


I hope you can gain something from my experiences--from my journey.  If you have any feedback, opinions, disagreements, etc., leave them in the comments section after my posts.  If no one reads this....I won't know.  I'll just pretend someone did.